My injury has forced me to become a very dependent person. This is hard for me because I went from being very independent to having to depend on someone for EVERYTHING. I didn’t have a choice because I couldn’t do anything for myself. I am finally able to do SOME things on my own and gives me a small sense of freedom with each new thing that I learn I can do.
A few weeks ago, at bible study with some friends, I couldn’t see my paper very good and I was able to move it over all by myself. Just a simple thing like that made me so happy to be able to do it myself and not have to ask anyone for help.
Also, I have a device called a mobile arm support that supports my arm and lets me move it in whatever direction I can. I have been working on my goal to feed myself by Thanksgiving with the device. Last Tuesday, I painted with it for the first time! Even though I need the assistance from the arm support, I’m closer than I was to doing it on my own. It gives me more freedom than if someone else was holding my arm. I want to be able to do everything I used to do but for now, I will do what I can with what I have and I will keep working to get stronger and stronger.
In my previous blogs I have talked about relying on God. While relying and depending are synonyms, I have read that depending on God is knowing you can’t succeed without Him, and relying is knowing He will be your safety net if you happen to slip and fall in the effort!
Depending on God when life is hard will help you keep going in the middle of trials and will bring you comfort when you need it.
Sure, we can make plans. We can work hard and sometimes those plans will happen. But, we are not in control. No matter how much we want to be. And that’s okay, because God is still in control.